"no,it's gotta be the shoes!"

That's Chase Coy,

he just made me cry.
Listen to this song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cLBjfKSsaY4

lyrics:

In a hospital room

I'm struggling to stay awake

And you, are laying on your deathbed,

But you don't know it yet.

It's all just a bit to much and so I Step outside for just a moment.

For just a moment.

I stare out a dirty window pane And listen to the rain Pours down and it covers Everything.

And masks the noise from all the

Medical machineryn I am left with the sound of your labor breathing.

(Chorus)

But you are close to going home now.

Your father welcomes you with Open arms.

A room has been prepared

And so you don't have to be scared

As you leave behind the struggles Of this world.

The next day came with no improvments

Leaving you to explain These things take time.

These things take time.You told me you were ready andYou weren't afraid to die.

He is always watching over you and I

seriously,wow.

That guy is amazing.

Like woah.

I don' even know what to say about him.

We may get out of school a little early today.

mayyybe.

We've been working on our stupid "newspapers" in Mrs. Cox.

Nobody wants their picture taken.

I GET TO SEE MIKEY & NICK TODAY!

You have no idea how freaking excited I am.

I talked to Mikey on the phone last night(hes 2)

and it made me cry. He's grown up so much.

He was like,"I wuv yew!" ahhh! & I think I'm going to see Fired Up! with Mara tonight,if it's not storming too bad.

Pagent tommorrow,good luck girls.

I actually did my Geometry homework dudes,like on my own!

aha,kidney stones.

So last night my mom said she doesn't think I'm ever going to get another boyfriend,lol.

She said I'd been ruined.

That I either get tired of them or they're obsessive.

That's not true though,Ive always been selective about the guys I date.

I told her that and she said,but now youre 20 times worse.

so I told her if there is anything I've learned this year is not to put up with crap,lol.

I want somebody who will make me happy.

I know how its suppose to feel,so why should I settle for anything less?

I'm just in highschool I'm not going to find my rest of forever here,highschool should be about me having fun with the amazing people God has blessed me with that I like to call friends.

I haven't had as much fun as I've had this year in the past 3 combined.

I thank Christine,Emily,Kristin,Mara,Garrett,Whitney,Mariah,& my family for that.

I feel like I've grown up so much since last year. I know what I want out of life and I have learned that some things should be more about me,so this year is about making me happy.

Dig it?

I'm just not one of those girls who can like or "love" just anybody.

I am picky.

People get on my nerves.

I don't like the usual things like "baby" and "beautiful"

I like the real thing,not the whole highschool "i love you,i hate you."

It's fine if you're into that,but I think its all just nobody want's to be alone,

and for right now I'm okay with being alone.

I think everybody has to realize at some point what real love is and what isn't.

I'm not saying I have it all figured out,but I feel like I have a pretty good idea.

I just feel like if it's suppose to be I'll feel that way,& I haven't felt anything special yet;)

anyways eight minutes,

Im out.

Love,

Jamie